prussianknight

I had a conversation with my mum the other day about my hair. Long story short, she said it suited me very well. I replied something to the effect of "You think so? I'm glad. I worry I'm too fat for a short cut like this, but I'm really happy with it, so cool." To which she replied, as she always does when I say I'm fat, with telling me something along the lines of "What? Why would you think that? You're not fat!" This time I respond and say "I just mean if I had a less rounded face I think my cut would look better on me. And maybe not to you, but I think I'm fat." To which she got a tad upset and insisted I wasn't. So I asked her; what's so bad about being fat? If I said "I'm skinny" you wouldn't be upset. Why is being fat a bad thing?" And she didn't know quite what to say. So I added "I'm not saying I'm morbidly obease or anything, because I'm not." to which she said "Well, good."

And honestly, it's not 100% true; I do have an idea of why she automaticaly took it as a negative thing. Because our society does. Fat is bad, ugly, comedic, and generally unattractive and undesirable. Ideals of beauty have changed, and with it so have how people peircive themselves and weigh their self worth. It's truely saddening.

Another conversation I've had was when a friend jokingly called me fat and, instead of getting upset or defensive, I agreed. She got very upet and wouldn't let me get off the phone until I took it back and said I wasn't fat. I only caved in and did it as it was late and I was tired. I tried to explain that it's okay, being fat wasn't a bad thing, but she was upset and kept saying sorry for it.

In high school I wasn't quite as confident about it as I am now, so I can understand that it can be hard for people to honestly be fat and okay with it, but once you're there it's fantastic. It's far nicer, to me, to accept being fat and deal with the issues it may bring [cosplay is a great hobby for someone who is fat, let me tell you /sarcasm] than to lie to yourself about your size and have it constantly thrown back in your face.

So, honestly; what's so bad about being fat? The size of my jeans doesn't make me a better or worse person, and my weight doesn't make me smarter or dumber, and how I look doesn't define who I am. Who I am defines who I am.

(I will note, however, that this doesn't mean not wanting to be fat is bad. I'm working on losing weight by working out when I can, as I don't want to be fat. But it doesn't make fat BAD. It's like saying you don't want to have brown hair and that you'd rather be a redhead. Not wanting to be one thing doesn't mean it's bad, it's just not your cup of tea.)

Okay, so things have been BUSY. I've pretty much FINISHED a cosplay I only just decided to do [Denmark; sorry for the horrid quality] and been trying to finalize plans for the gay pride festival I'm going to be in on the 25th. We [my group] might not get to stay as long as I'd hoped now, but we'll see how it goes.

Aniwave is coming up soon-ish, I think. [Sept 20 or Nov 20? Why can't I ever remember?] I'll probably be Denmark to it because I'm super excited about how nicely this cosplay has come out. I literally got this done in... three days. I started shopping on the 12th and finished yesterday on the 14th. And by finished I mean I'm still boot shopping and waiting for my wig to get here so I can style it. [The boots I don't count, as I'll also use them for Ukraine, England, Prussia, Canada and... basically ALL HETALIA COSPLAYS haha]

Next Animazement I'll have people together to do a Nordic cosplay group and I am so so excited. We even have an Iceland. :D

Other than that I'm thinking of making a giant axe. I'm trying to think of a good way yo make it, as I want something lighter than wood and... I think I'm going to go with cardboard. I know, I know; it sounds shitty already, right? But I've made a keyblade of it before and it looked badass. So this should only cost me $12 or less, as that's about what the keyblade cost to make, so... well, looks like I have a new pet project.

Ah well, random subject change time~ Mighty Fine Cosplay is getting together this weekend and attempting to make a cosplay video [or two. Or three. Or fifty, amirite, rainbowmiku?] and take some pictures. We have lots of strange, lulzy things planned [tea parties, a hoy!] as well as actual serious cool things [you know the 100 themes challenge? Ooooh yeeeeah.] so I'm really looking forward to it, even if I don't have my Denmark wig in time and I'm on my period and thus Not Happy™. I'm sure that I'll have so much fun that I wont be thinking about my period. [And that midol will come to my aid.]

Other than that I have plushies I need to make and work on. I mentioned this to someone already, but would anyone be interested in an actual plushie tutorial? I don't mind making one, and I've had a few people ask how I make pluhies, what to use, etc etc and... I honestly don't mind answering these questions, but might a tutorial be useful? idk, I feel like I'm a little pompous asking but... if anyone wants one I'd be willing to do one. I need an excuse to start a new plushie, anyway. =3=

Because I felt like making a post about this;
[Public because discussion and debate is always loved and welcomed~]

( Feminist 2am ramblings )

p.s.; I totally got this icon just for this haha